This is how I feel all of the time.
I keep my eyes peeled while driving during warmer months hoping to score a freebie item from the side of the road to use for art. Running late for work last month, I cruised past a beautiful carved mirror that usually swings on hinges from a bedroom dresser. When I drove by later that day, it was gone.
Creating artwork is a passion of mine. My heart gets squeezed a little bit when I get a good idea of something to make. I love sitting on the couch unraveling old sweaters for their yarn into balls or cutting old necklaces found in junk drawers at flea markets for their funny shaped beads. I found a necklace recently that had large metal beads that look like owl eyes. Those eyes will stare unblinkingly from some sort of art creation; soon.
A quick story: One day I bought a new pillow and had it sitting next to our bed. My husband greets me after work saying, "I changed the bed linens, threw out your old pillow and put your new one on for you." I looked at him and said "Thanks! But... the pillow was for an art project! I was going to cut it and use the stuffing!" He just laughed and shook his head.
So many times when I talk about making art I hear myself saying I'm going to make this "when things slow down..."
I've come to the realization that Life will not slow down. You need to take the time you need for what you are passionate about and just run with it. Never put off something you want to do. Months fly by and I'm always making excuses "The apartment is too small. I'm too tired. I have homework. The house is dirty. I'll do it later." Making excuses doesn't make the magic happen. Just go for it.
Beth Lippmann 11.18.14